When I got into work this morning, one of my coworkers told me that there was a woman working with her who read palms.  This was rather exciting for me, since I've always been drawn to the occult, so I made my way, as soon as I had some free time, down there to meet up with this girl.

First off, let me say, I'm highly surprised that I hadn't met her before today and am saddened that she won't be around too much longer.

This woman really knew her stuff.  I've had my palm read before on several occassions, but never before by someone who really knew what they were doing.  Frauds and charletains abound in the arena of psychic activity.  She does not fall into either of those categories.

So I sat there while a friend of mine observed.  My friend was astounded and kept saying that what she knows of my early life tied in directly with the stuff the palm reader was telling me.  There was a significant amount of truth in her findings, which isn't surprising to me, since I am a believer in magick and occult things.

I think it would be a little too personal for me to list off the things that I was told...  I didn't mind my friend being there and I wouldn't have minded anyone else witnessing it, but to sit here and list off all the things she told me...  all the truths she listed about about what my life has been up to now is just...  I don't know...  too close to home.  Some of you, I'm sure, will hear it in oral conversation and anyone who actually asks is welcome to hear what she said, but texting it isn't something that feels right to me, at least not at this time.

She gave me truth, but outside of that truth, surrounding it and crossing it, she gave me hope.  I think that her timelines were a little off in certain aspects and I probably have some difficult roads ahead of me, but I can see the benefits to come.  Not the specifics of them, but let's call it the light at the end of the tunnel...  or possibly between tunnels.

You see, I've had a very hard life.  For every story I share, there are several that I don't.  For every story that I don't share, there are stories I have forgotten, or, more accurately, blocked out of my mind.  Please don't think that I'm complaining.  I'm not.  All of the trials and tribulations have served to make me who I am and to give me the outlook I have on life.  Every experience, for bad or good, has brought me to where I am today, and even when I'm down or downright depressed, overall I have lived a rich life...  does that mean it was smooth sailing?  By no means.  But the troubles and strife have fed my creativity and caused me to really take the time to not just get to know myself, but see things from the perspective of others - some of whom are (or have been) worse off than me, some of whom are better off.

I've thought a lot lately about how I would never give up any of my experiences to have it be easier overall.  I wouldn't change anything about even the difficult times because of where it's led me.  The people I've met and the things I've done lead to excellent stories, most of which are highly entertaining.  I would rather really LIVE and have stories to tell than to coast through life and wind up at a ripe old age wondering where all the time went.

I have earned every single one of my 30 years.  I have, with one exception, made sure that all of my years have been filled with interesting happenings and people.  My parents started this trend and I have continued it, to the best of my abilities.  I do live in interesting times, and when I don't, I make them interesting.

The nutshell of the reading is that I am coming out of one difficult overall time, one that has been lingering for a while and hits me on several fronts.  I'm about to enter into another that will probably only affect one aspect of my life.  I am healthy and (with minor expections) should remain so, with a long and rich life in front of me.  It appears that I am about to find that the rest of my life (or at least the next significant portion) is much smoother sailing than this first part has been.

I have never been more ready for this.  I almost feel like she told me that I've now paid my dues.

I can't even begin to tell you how much of a relief that is.

I only hope I can remember to come back and check this in 6 months time to see if I can see the benefits and rewards that she tells me are coming.

~FG };^>