~*Ramblings of Fyre*~


Monday, May 02, 2005
*sigh* I crush him...

The girls are tired of hearing those words now.  Of this I am sure, considering they are repeatedly subjected to this phrase coming out of my mouth.

The problem is that it is SO TRUE.  I crush him deeply and increasingly.  It's getting bad.  I work very hard to not build things up in my mind (this time), but the reality is that he's so close to my ideal (at least from what I've seen so far) that it literally frightens me.

I swear to you, he is the yin to my yang.  An ego at least as big as mine, but with that laid-back "Yes, I am just that good (and I have the facts to back it up)" kind of feel to it.  It's a rarity with arrogance and egotism, in my experience, more so with guys.  Not afraid to call bullshit when I'm bullshitting and, as far as I can tell, not afraid to hear it either.

I guess the word is simpatico and believe me, it is quite appealing.  He danced with me.  Not a "shall we dance" kind of thing, but just grabbing me and dancing me around the room.  This is exactly the sort of thing I firmly believe there should be more of.  A complete gentleman with no pretensions about it, holding doors (as appropriate), offering his coat, walking me home, but sadly (*sigh*) never crossing the line.

Much to my dismay.

I like feeling attended to (for lack of a better phrase).  I like being touched.  I like the meeting of the minds that occurs when similar personalities come together, whether in agreement or disagreement.  I like how comfortable I am.  I like crushing.

*sigh*  But I crush him SO MUCH that I can't help but wonder so many things.  Is the feeling mutual?  What, if anything, would change?  Can I be the pushy broad I usually am without scaring him away, as I have done with so many others?

So I just don't do anything but crush and gush and be a silly girl to selected friends (all three of them), all the while enjoying his presence and hoping to maybe get a little bit of lyrical inspiration out of it.

~FG };^>

Posted at 17:29 by FyreGoddess

 

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As destructive as life,
   as healing as death;
An institutioner of strife,
   just as prone to bless.
It is all that is good,
   but with an evil trend;
As it was in the beginning,
   so shall it be the end.
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